♥ You'll never know the real me.

I noe its been ageeeeeeeeeeeeees since i update this blog.Now i just feel like blogging here cause there is noone i can actually talk to.Im alone in the house.And i just got fuck by my dad because of some issues.Boyfren's in camp and i cant talk to him.Can only talk to him at night.haiz.So who am i suppose to talk to?Well i feel like shit now.Shit towards my parents.Shit towards myself.I feel soo small and useless.I dont know what to do.Haizz.There is nothing i do tat im proud of or they are proud of.Seems like everything i do never get appreciated.And im soo fed up with my fucking life.No company gimme a call on any job tho i've sent like hundreds of application.Urgggh.I really need a job.I noe once i get a job, my life will change.Im really hoping.Reaaaally hoping.
Well,one more thing.Doesnt mean she's changed over the years,she is like an angel to u guys now.Wadeva she do is right.Kept comparing me to her.WTH.And she talks like she rule the world and she is sooo baik like tt.haiz.I noe la she is working and gives u money.But is tt all u guys can thing about?I want my own homeee.:(