♥ You'll never know the real me.

Skipped work today cause was feeling lazy.Was planning to ask boyfie out for dinner cause i was in a very good mood and tot of a good bonding time with him.Unfortunately,he rejected the offer cause he had to go out with his sec skool frens which i didnt noe until the last minute.Oh ok,nvm.Tho i was greatly disappointed, i had to let go.Let him have fun.
Didnt expect my day to get worse.:( :(
I ignored boyfie's calls and msges totally.Well, its onie a msg and 2 miss calls tho.I dont noe wad i shud do now.Im totally helpless.I've been holding back my tears bt i broke down.I tink i need a time out.Why isit so hard?Wen girls tend to get serius and settle down, why cant the guy do the same?
Fiq, i noe ur gonna read tis someday.Maybe i cud let u get thru our discussion tt night.Partly u said is true.But partly not.By ur way of describing relationship, i can see tt ur not serius to get settle down with me.Im asking for sth simple as to just inform me of ur whereabouts.Ur way of being in a r/s is like an open r/s. I can see that ur onie finding me wen u have the need to do so.Otherwise, silence.I've never stopped u from doing wadeva u want.I've never said no if u wanna go meet ur frens.I never forced u to meet me all the time.All i wanna noe is ur whereabouts, honesty, care.U never showed tt u care.U dun bother where i go.U dont listen wen i tell u sth.U never pay any attention.I've asked u before.Do u still wanna mingle?If u do, then i'll leave.Cause i dont want someone hu still wants to mingle.I want someone loyal,who is serius to be in a r/s with me.Who shows tt he is serius.Not onie text me wen he feels the need to.I dont need long msges or convos.Just one or two simple msges to tell me wad ur up to is more than enuf for me.If u still think commitment is for husbands and wives, tell me straight tt ur stil nt serius.Im helpless. :'(