♥ You'll never know the real me.

On the eve of vday, went out with the kuzzins and maklang.In search of a plce to eat but everywhere was close.So settled on Far East.After eating, all went home except for me and ain.I didnt wanna go home.Headed to Marina Square for a meetup with Feisal,Jutah,Jutah's fren,As and Syabil.Chilled there and Fei decided to go sheesha.Haziq and Iz then came.So around 11pm,we headed to Arab Strt.Yeaah had lotsa fun.Played games and laugh like nobody's business.Atleast they made me stop tinking bout him and wad he was doing tt time.Haiz.Vday is not onie bout lovers.But also bout ur loved ones.At that point of time,they were my loved ones.Thanks guys.
2010 vday is the one tt i will remember my whole entire life.Aren't boyfriends suppose to be ur bestfriend?But wen ur bestfriend decides to ditch u for some other pleasures or people wad wud happen?Yes,heartbreak.haizz.I tot he got brains and respect me.But no,he decided to go afterall without thinking of how i feel at tt particular time.Him gg made our situation worse.He made us become like this.I gave him everything to make him happy.Yet,he lied.Yet,he doesnt care bout wad i feel.Say urself selfish first.I was very very disappointed in him tt night.I controlled myself real hard not to msg him the wholeeee day today.But my patience ended at 8pm where i decided to give him a call and text him.He ignored.I cudnt get thru him.I know that he has not come home since yesterday night.Eventho im worried, i cant do a thing.This is what he wants.He doesnt wanna acknowledge me,ok fine.If he is happy being out there with his frens, then so be it.I didnt speak a SINGLE word on the way home.Me n Dina almost wanna leave to have a drink somewhere.Most prolly tomoro.I cudnt take it.I have to do something to keep my mind distracted otherwise i will go crazy.Tak ku sangka,kau tak berhati perut.Wad ur doing now is like trying to punish me for my mistake.But wad did i do to you?Wad Syafiq?Haizz.Im crying bucketloads right now.I cant hold back anymore.Im soo sad at wads happening.Just hope u will take good care of urself out there.Im useless to you.