♥ You'll never know the real me.

All these while i tot going with the flow would be the best solution.However, it also brings nothing but sorrow. I've lost the one i love.Am i gonna lose another? Someone whom i care?Someone who occupies my time all these while?Haissh.I dont understand why u think loosening the grip would be better. We were fine the way it is. And now,in other words ur saying goodbye?Why am i not being given a chance to be happy?
And Muhammad Alif bin Mustaffa, why are u being a selfish jerk? Ur telling me not to put any hope on you coz u cant guarantee u can give me wad i want. But then, u say u think we are fine like this.YES,FINE FOR YOU! So, ur asking me to stay like this,waiting for you wen i dun even noe whether there will be OUR future?Argh.
And sometimes,i dun even understand myself.Why can't i just take control?Why cant i be a bit more stern and tell him off?Why cant i do that? I have always been this kinda girl.I hate to see people get hurt. I will easily pity that someone even wen he/she has already hurt me. I will easily forgive and forget. BILER NAK GAME?! Stupid Syaz.
Im missing him right now.Usually,we wud msg the whole day and call each other at night.But since he wanna loosen the grip,i cant possible do the same right?I wanna talk to him.Haisssh.Wonder where is he.
I seriusly feel like shit right now!